Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Meet the father

Here i have before me two families,both of which r abt to b one in a couple of mnths by virtue of their kids.....its the girl's family n the boy's family who have decided to get married...n i see this family happy,planning the occasion,getting excited abt the events to come,congratulating the boy n girl, n then i see this family who is solely governed by the man of the house,if he says yes then it is yes,if he says no then it is no,if he doesnt wanna b a part of the occasion then he'll do all he can in his capacity to ruin it n if he wants to b a part of it he'll make everyone happy with his decision......wat i see is the difference in point of view wen both of them see the same future,i see the ego n stubbornness taking over the kid's happiness n i see the father closing his eyes just because he doesnt want this to happen....its weird to b a son of tht father cos its not a very pleasant feeling to go thru wen all u wanted was his approval so tht he doesnt feel tht things r happening behind his back,it also feels weird to know tht their r fathers who know n appreciate the happiness their kids seek for n their egos r kept aside atleast for tht moment...n wen all of this goes on,it feels weird to meet a father,a father's understanding tht u always wanted to have...

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

father and son

We both have been living like this for quite sumtime now,both bound by our own egos,not wanting to talk to the other person yet living under the same roof....our day goes sumwhat like this,by the time m up,hes gone to the office,he doesnt care wat i do during the day i dont give a f*** wat he does in his office,wen m home in the evening m in my room n hes before the tele....v face each other for the first time during the day at dinner,no words r ever spoken n as the day gets over v r off to bed....the relationship is of father n son but he talks more to my bro n sis who r miles n miles away frm us now,he knows more abt the neighour's kids,but he knows i exist too.....
yes,the fabulous advice in this case is...oh,y dnt u shed ur ego,if he doesnt then y dont u initiate the talks,hes elder than u so y dont u try.....
n the answer....how can a person start a conversation wen prior to the conversation itself ur given the vibes tht i dnt wanna talk to u,wen the mere look in the eyes tell u tht a creature like u dnt deserve anything ur getting,wen the anger shown by his every action kills the normal talks abt anything possible,wen he starts talking at ur back tht theres nothing tht u do wud b right,wen he cant trust u for anything tht u do n every action done by u is looked wid disgust n hatred...
yes,as a son m supposed to respect him the most,i grew up learning tht he can never b wrong but now i've learnt more frm life,i've learnt tht he may be right at times but he can always be wrong too....i've learnt tht hes not god n watever he says is not the last word....wen he cant even b a part of the normal moments in my life then i dnt really care if hes even involved wid the most important decisions of my life....i mite hate myself for it all but dad,i hate u more for being wat u r...