What was I doing????

wen the rest of the world was celebrating xmas,singing christmas carol, wat was i doing?wen the rest of them were kissing their loved ones on this new year's eve, wat was i doing?wen the people i know rememberd me on my birthday,wat was i doing?wen the valentines day was celebrated the world over,wat was i doing?wat was i doing wen it was a pleasant evening,wen the sunshine filled my house,wen the breaking news broke everyday in the tele,wen the get together wid friends was a fine event,wen the movie watched wid friends was nother great experience although the movie sucked big time,wen our car had to go for her routine servicing,wen our home lease renewal had to be done,wen a close friend of mine got married n everyone attended it,wen the evenings seen from our balcony looked beautiful,wen the summers took over winters,wen orion was still easier to find amongst the rest of the stars,wen another new version of cell phone was introduced to the rest of the world,wen the politicians played yet another politics,wen the rising prices of daily needs bothered everyone,wen simple visits to or by friends lead to dinners n conversations???? yes,i remember,i remember wat i did...i was trying to prepare my ship to pass through pirate infested area widout any attacks,i was praying none of the pirates attacked us as v passed thru tht area,i was trying to change the attitude of people on board,i was trying to make it a better ship,i was making plans to pick up our lost anchor in the middle of the ocean,i was preparing my ship for the numerous inspections tht were due as she was blacklisted in the recent past,i was doing my best to make her seaworthy,i was shivering in the negative temperature wen work cudnt stop,i was bleeding from my nose cos of the winters in korea,i was sleeping wid my lights on in the nights as the nightmares re-visited me,i was trying to stop the leaks of butadiene on deck as the amount which a human nose detects is 1000ppm whereas its just 10ppm required to cause cancer in a human body so before i cud smell it had already caused harm to my body,i was dealing wid work areas where such leaks were a common thing,i was unable to sleep for longer stretchs as the emergencies ranged from dragging of anchor,blackouts,slipping of anchor,stopping the leaks on board,repairing equipments ignored for the past years,updating records tht the previous guys ignored all this while,taking risks in my daily routine,breaking my head over the simplest problems which only got bigger wid time....was it a different world i lived in in the past months cos it always looks different to me everytime i stepped into it,why is it tht i missed each world i left n wen i was in them always wished to be on the other one...wen will i learn to except the fact tht i never belonged to either of them n never will,wen will i accept things move on n they always will...