30 mar 2010

the past few months have changed me,it has changed me in a personal
level...the way i think,the way i behave,the way i react to things is
different from wat it was before....i have been wid people apart frm u
wid whom i've laughed,with whom i've enjoyed moments,wid whom i've
been upset on things,wid whom i've cursed people,wid whom i've dealt
wid problems,wid whom i've faced problems,wid whom i've conversed,wid
whom i've shared my thoughts,wid whom i've changed...the overall
experience has made me a much calmer person,i've learnt to b more
patient wid time,i've learnt to think more than i usually do,i've also
become equally forgetful...it hurts to know tht v r evolving in
different levels yet r not able to share the experiences on a one on
one basis at tht moment....its difficult to realise tht wid time v r
slowly becoming different individuals who can now deal wid problems on
their own n dont necessarily need the other person to help him/her
out...

the nlp course u did had a life altering affect on u,i feel bad as
i wasnt their by ur side to share the experience or change...even
today to me it mite not seem tht important as i havent seen the glow n
the spark in ur eyes,but i still realise from wat u've told me tht its
been once in a lifetime experience for u....m not there wen u apply
the techniques u learnt n see the changes in people,the changes in
u,the changes in life by itself,maybe it makes me come out of the loop
as every one else gets to see this...by the time m back things will b
different,the excitement for the whole experience wud've
diminished,the changes seen in others wud b just nother thing...but in
the end,i also know tht wen m back i'll have u to take me back to the
same time where the changes started forming n i dont think growing up
as individuals is such a bad thing cos wen v grow/evolve/change as
individuals so do v as a couple....

theres this thought of urs to sail wid me the next time,n theres
this child inside me whos excited just by the thout of it,who wants u
to come right now,to forget ur work for sumtime n be wid me,but then
theres this practical side of me who wants u to make the decision
based on ur work schedule,who says u shud carry on wid ur work n not
break the flow just because of my selfish need of not being
lonely....i know which side of me m wid but the decision shall be urs
n my thouts shudnt influence it.